Jinxed...

Chicken Flip Flops

I knew I would jinx myself in asking the question - how much more shit can one person handle.  I should have known to stop the words before they fell out of my mouth.

My morning started off by not wanting to get out of bed - too tired, it was cold - and I just wanted to stay under my blankets where it was warm.  I finally get out of bed - head into the bathroom and start the shower.  Let the water run for a few minutes - having a well, the water doesn't automatically come out hot and needs a few minutes to get to a comfortable temperature.  I get in the shower and no sooner to get my hair wet, does the water pressure to get lighter and lighter until there is no water coming out of the shower head.  Grrrrr!!  The pipes from the well to the pump are frozen...no more water for us this morning.  Let's just say, I was a hot mess today.

I am in the middle of drying my hair when an ocular migraine comes on.  Can't see out of my right eye - looks like a kaleidescope.  Pop a bunch of Advil and off to work I go.

Get to work - have my meeting that I was dreading and it went ok for the part directed at me, but not so ok for the part not directed at me.  Nothing I can really do - it's all out of my control and I think they realize that.  Worked through my migraine which finally passed around 12:30pm.  Worked for a few more hours before getting ready to head out - and that's then I got the call.

My husband calls to tell me that a hawk killed one of our chickens (actually a rooster).  Now our chickens, are like babies to my daughter.  They are all named by her and she hand feeds them - including the roosters.  My heart was breaking just thinking about telling her - after her devastation last year of losing four of her chickens to a fox.  She took it really really hard and cried herself to sleep.  I hate trying to explain mother nature and predator/prey to my daughter - especially when it comes to an animal that she loves so much.

RIP Peepers - you will be missed!  (Peepers at 3 days old)
July 2010-January 2010

"There is such a concept of loss.  Loss and how we react to loss.  We think of things in a straight line: birth-life-death.  That's not really how it works.  You take those ends and you bend it into a circle so it's birth-life-death-REbirth.  So you have to be prepared when you lose something - when you go through a divorce, when your mother dies, when you lose your house you have to understand that nature has it no other way.  There is a rebirth.  The death is painful.  It doesn't change the pain of the death.  But you gotta stay awake and stay focused for what's the rebirth that God is about to offer you"

Will Smith