Fear is the father of courage and the mother of safety...

Broken Heels Zone

Feeling broken or consumed with thoughts of unknown fear can be a crippling feeling.  Sometimes the fear is warranted, sometimes not.  Regardless though, it can cause one to ask a lot of questions and more than likely keep a lot of those questions and concerns to themselves.

My husband is in this situation right now - which I don't think I could blame him.  The last few days he has been more vocal about what is running through his mind and the fears and concerns he has regarding his lung collapsing again.  This situation made him realize that he is not invincible - that it could have played out much differently.

What happens if both of my lungs collapse?

Would somebody be able to breath for me until they could get me to the hospital?

If there is a 50% chance of my lung re-collapsing, what is the time frame that it usually happens in?

Why do I still have pain at the base of my ribs?

What am I going to do if it re-collapses but I don't feel any of the 'textbook' symptoms?

I am trying to ease his mind - providing him with whatever information I have or have been able to locate.  But it's hard at the same time - because I have the same questions and concerns.  I have not hidden that fact from him though.  I don't want him to think that this situation does not scare the ever loving woo out of me.  Because it does.

So the 'positive' in this situation - is that we are working through it together.  He has realized that he needs to be more vocal about his physical symptoms but also what he is thinking.  That keeping this information hidden could cause him more harm than good.  He has learned that going to a hospital when something feels off, is not necessarily a bad thing and that there are many situations where going straight to the hospital is warranted and is smarter than going to a doctor or ignoring it.

Right now - we are working on repairing the broken heel of our shoe.  Hopefully the repair method we have utilized will be a permanent fix and we will not remain in the Broken Heel Zone.  Should it not work this first time, we are at least better prepared and more educated on how to handle the next time.  But we are praying that the current method works and our fears will subside with time.

"To fear is one thing.  To let fear grab you by the tail and swing you around is another"

Katherine Paterson