Black and Silver Bionic Heels
Ever have a day where you feel like you are in robot mode? Just going through the motions?
My work day was just that - going through the motions but not mentally there. Today was the first day of leaving my husband at home by himself and I couldn't help but worry. What if something happened and no one was there to help him? It didn't help that I tried calling him a couple of times and also sent him a couple of text messages - but didn't hear anything back. I struggled all afternoon of whether or not I should leave work and go home and check on him.
Fortunately when I got home - he was here and he was ok. Said he was having problems with his phone and had tried calling me back but it kept disconnecting. It was what he told me next that made me wish I had come home. It would also be about this time that I came out of robot mode.
He had let our dogs out in the backyard. Our german shepherd goes on a chain when he goes outside - because he loves to run and would just keep going. So because he is on a chain, he is always in the backyard and on our property. Our next door neighbor recently got a black lab puppy that he has been training to walk with him but not on a leash - the puppy is never on a leash. Well, today the puppy decided to take a run at our german shepherd - did I mention that our shepherd doesn't get along with other dogs besides the ones in our house? Well, my husband quickly tries to one hand grab our dog's chain - mind you he is not supposed to be doing anything to increase his breathing or heartrate. Surprise, surprise - our neighbor barely responds.
Not the kind of thing that I can have happening while he is home alone trying to heal. Also got to change his bandage tonight and got to see and take a picture of the hole in his chest. We got a laugh out of taking all of the medical tape off and sent a picture of his "hole" to his friends. The return comments were funny and what we expected, haha.
Hoping tomorrow is a little easier. That I can focus on the tasks at hand. But I know there will still be that part of me that worries if he is ok. I've always worried about him - now I do even more.
"Sometimes it's harder to attain inner silence than outer silence. The dog stopped barking and the kids have gone to bed, but your mind has a lot to talk about and it knows you can't pretend you're not at home"
Linda Solegato
love the quote! The shoes were kind of intimidating. Tomorrow, hopefully less worry.
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